After my last break up… i can’t quite cry at weddings without people thinking that i’m crying because im NOT the one getting married? I’ve shed a few tears at a few weddings last year and this year, mainly at my COUSINS’ wedding and a few of my good friends. And everytime those around me saw me cry, the person NEAREST to me would pat me gently on my back and go ‘It’s your turn soon, ada tu krg, don’t worry’..

and in my head, ill be like:
“Terima kasih ah mendoakan ah.. but im not crying because of my UNCERTAIN FATE, im crying because yang kawin ani 1st COUSIN ku dangan ku bemain lagi damit!?!?!?! SKALI YA ANI BASAR SUDAH KAWIN YA SUDAH, MCM MIMPI BAH KAMI BEMAIN MASAK MASAK LAGI DAMIT ATU.. skali aku menangis pasalnya..SIAPA TAH DANGAN KU BEMAIN MASA MASAK NI??? SIAPA JADI MAMA SIAPA JADI BAPA SIAPA JADI ANAK???”

but instead, i would usually just brush these comments off with a half smile.

mana lagi yang PENGANTIN sendiri yang becakap. but its ok, i understand that it’s your special day, and the universe on this day is forced to REVOLVE around you..and so im going to let this pass, wipe my tears off , wave my middle finger at you when no one is looking and say “selamat pengantin baru.. semoga bahagia ke anak cucu..sama SEBENARNYA, MAKE UP MU BIDA!!”

banar jua tu, mun ku KAN MENANGIS pasal KU BALUM KAWIN.. I CAN DO IT IN MY OWN TIME THANK YOU VERY MUCH..(which i don’t by the way. cause im perfectly happy where i am now) BEHAPA TAH LAGI DAPAN ORG..LIKE THAT WOULD GET ME KAWIN ANI FASTER? think about it. sigh.

u think being asked when it’s going to be your turn is OFFENSIVE???????

ani lagi kejiwa rasanya, menusuk kalbu. yatah, pasal ani..aku nda dpt menangis lagi time org kawin.

nda papa ku simpan saja tangis ku ani didalam butul bagi ex boyfren ku minum. lolol.

lol. on another note,

Selamat Pengantin Baru Mun & husband, semoga kekal ke anak cucu. AMIN. 🙂

Oh. To Diya & Azam too, Selamat pengantin baru 🙂

kiss me.

pasal injek pun orang ani kan marah.i dont usually go to the HYS page on Brudirect but when i do, id usually go all the way by clicking on the MALAY section. hahaahaahahahaha. lagi drama!!!

mcm orang ani..

MANA TIA TUKANG INJIK LELAKI SEBELUM ANI?
June 17, 2011 – 7:41 am by Ambuyat Sagu
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Masa tahun lepas bapaku ani binjik umrah, kali tahun ani ia kan umrah lagi. Lepas atu, masa ia kana suruh masuk di bilik injik atu ia minta laki-laki untuk menginjik ia sal ia berwudu time atu. So pasal atu lah ia nda mau bini-bini menginjik. Tambahan lagi yang sedihnya laki-laki yang selalu menginjik ia inda lagi ada. Pasal semua tukang injiknya ani bini-bini yang kaja di sana atu. Sebelum-sebelumnya ada seorang tukang injik lelaki inda tau2 pekerja bini-bini di sana membagi tahu arah bapaku ani yang tukang injik laki-laki atu pindah sudah ke KB. Jadinya pohon kami kalau buleh mesti ada tukang injik laki-laki di ong sum ping atu, mun inda payah eh. Tambahan lagi ada baiknya tukang injik laki-laki di sana atu untuk menginjik orang yang berwudhu, mudim-mudim, orang-orang yg request lelaki lah. Kami berharap kepada pihak yang berkenaan mempertimbangkan lagi dan baiktah biskita ambil balik tukang injik lelaki atu ……

hahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahhaa…aku tau plang tukang injik laki2..tapi ya tukang injik kucingg!!!!

kiss me.

Me: nau, is it safe to travel alone by cab in Jakarta?
Nauli: yes..should be. kamu ambil saja taksi Blue Bird
Me: yes that’s what ive been using, yang Silver Bird juga bagus kan?
Nauli: wooh, ya apa lagi Silver Bird..lagi mahal lagi bagus lah.
me: ok.. so its safe?
Nauli: ya..pokoknya di INDONESIA apa apa aja yang ada BIRD itu BAGUS.
me:…

click. for more info on the best bird in Jakarta.

i am so the very lah to the very very very kalat mata. i miss home and the people in it. i think i was only in Brunei for a week this month. Come to think of it, i shouldve just gone somewhere near for my holidays. Not saying that Melbourne was a waste of time, but i had chosen the wrong month to go totally oblivious to the fact that it was winter in Australia.

Craving blueberry pancakes. craving alot of things now. especially sleep. it’s the 2nd day of my datang moon.. and i’m totally trippin. i feel like ive been up for weeks when i actually went to bed at 10 last night. maybe the fact that i haven’t been running is also contributing to my sluggishness.

thank god its friday.

kiss me.